Breaking Point January 12, 2007Posted by WishBoNe in Career, Emotions & Feelings, Food and Drinks, Gatherings, Handheld, Health and Fitness, Mobile Phone, Relationships, Technology and Gadgets.
There comes a time when a breaking point is approaching and you just can’t stop it. I didn’t get confirmed and I still have un-done tasks. I have unbalance in my life now. I have a coming wedding to attend that I totally forgot about it and DD booked an appointment with the hair stylist. When I remembered something familiar about that date, I wanted to knock myself on the head.
There are dates that I can’t put into my PDA because there is no confirmed time for that event. So, I put the date in the back of my head and forgot about it until something triggers it. I have something to do in the morning tomorrow such as paying the exam fees for the project, bloody $682 inclusive of GST. It’s a bloody exam, so why should GST be included? It’s neither a good nor a service!
I’m about to break down because of the chaos right now. I get blamed for forgetting to take note of the wedding. I’m worried about my job and project. I’m worried that if I don’t get confirmed, I will have to look for another job after CNY. I still have to see which days DD is free and not arrange anything besides dating DD. My schedule is pretty much the standard working hours except for DD. I have to print out DD’s work schedule and try to map to mine. Which leads to a major mismatch because DD would be working on weekends from afternoon to night or on night shift that means I can’t meet him.
I still have to worry if I don’t get confirmed, I don’t get to go for a holiday in March that I’ve been meaning to. My major worry is the job and I can’t concentrate on anything else now. I’m worried about money. I’m not that rich to be able to live off my savings for the rest of my life. I don’t know what events will be coming up and I am trying my darnest best to cope with all the schedules.
I am tired and going to break down soon if no one understand why I’m so emotional about losing my job, failing the exam and failing to keep it going.